The feeling of having everything you own all packed inside one car is incredible. It doesn’t feel like freedom. It feels more like a surprise of how many things you hold onto.
Also, the insecurity that if someone breaks into my car right now as I am typing this at a coffee shop… I am not sure if I would be that broken up.
How I got here
I didn’t just pack up on a whim and decide to move out. Living in San Luis Obispo I literally thought this is the safest and sweetest city. Then I moved into the “red zone.”
There is going to be an issue when I wake up at 5 a.m. and the party doesn’t stop till 3 a.m. Or if tobacco smoke keeps finding its way into my room.
So I had to do the hard part of making a decision of ending my sublet early.
What makes hard decisions hard
For what is in our control there are two reasons that make decisions hard. Sometimes it’s both or just one. But this is what it really boils down too.
- If you are too nice. Then you become in this weird limbo of hurting someone or hurting yourself. This just hurts you more. People might tell you that you just have to be a “bitch” but that’s not true. You just have to be straightforward.
- Overthinking it. You can’t take a hard choice and tumble it in your mind till it comes out soft like sea glass. You keep considering all the options but deep down you know you will be making that decision.
But there’s a way
I am not going to say just do it. But go confidently in the direction that you need to go.
Follow the spark that gave you insight in making that decision. Someone told me to have the confidence of a cloud. When you look at a cloud you never say it has a wrong shape. It just is different every day.
That is you create the confidence in yourself to step forward and make that decision you might not regret it.
The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.